I’m sitting by the phone waiting for it to ring.
A kind voice to tell me my life has meaning.
Someone whose worried about me letting my know
That I have value, that I matter or no.
I’m lost, caught up in a dream
My thoughts pulling my apart at the seam
A path once so clear, cast in shadow
My life so meaningless, feeling so hollow.
Agony, despair, confusion and shame
Only hearing that I’m all to blame.
For a life so promising trapped in a void,
She had no choice but to leave me destroyed.
I withered and died since that fateful last night,
Someone please help me, I’m drowning from my plight.
I saw another posting written so eloquently about pain, it made me feel something. A kindred spirit who longed for some peace of her own. In my head I continue to see my meltdown, trying to write about it when possible. Hoping that it stems the tide before it washes me overboard. It hasn’t been working. So I will continue to document my emotions here in this lovely arena, see where it leads me.